I cannot describe the sense of relief I feel since finding this site, to know I’m not the only one in this situation. Â Long story short, I left my ex at the beginning of the year. It was the right thing to do, our relationship had been over for years and we both struggled to see it.
Due to the separation I ended up losing my job not long after and have been struggling financially since. I have to move into affordable accommodation and it is not ideal. My ex and I also have 50% care arrangement of our 6 year old boy.
The problem for me is that this is not my home. I have no family here, very few friends left since the separation and I’m struggling, emotionally and financially. I have a boyfriend who lives in another city who has been trying to support me as much as he can, and my parents are doing the best they can from where they are. But I cant keep relying on them to keep my head above water. The days and nights that I don’t have my son are killing me.
So, I’m considering moving to my boyfriends. The prospect of not being here for my son is killer. But staying here I’m going down, I cant be the mum I need to be, I cant afford to give him what he needs, and I cant compete with his father. With the support of my boyfriend and my family maybe things can be better. I have a job to go to there and things to occupy me. I can fly here every second weekend to see him or he can fly to me.
The thing that gets me, is will my son cope with out me here? Is this going to screw him up? Is he going to resent me for it? Will I be able to cope? How are other people going to view me leaving? So many thoughts going through my mind…I cant see straight anymore!